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'Cause I feel these should be said.
Mar. 11th, 2006 03:55 amTaken from Jem's LJ, even though I know some of the people I'm "talking" to will never read it.
List 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will.
Don't say who they are.
Disable comments. (Yeah, I decided to enable comments too, though I may regret it XD; )
Never discuss it again.
1. I hate you. I used to love you in the past, but now I hate your guts and wish you'd get out of my life. You're so many miles away now, but you've still got tendrils in me and I wish I could pull them out, uproot you, and forget you. I moved past. It's time you did too.
2. I'm sorry we never talk anymore. You're a big part of a fandom that I, sadly, have little interest in now. Not because it was cancelled, then brought back; I'm glad it was. And I still love it, I just...don't have any interest in following it anymore. And it's sad that you no longer draw for it. I'll talk to you again someday, I promise.
3. You are my world. I thank every single diety out there that you walked into my life, everyday. I just wish things would go right, for once, and that nothing would get in the way of us talking, or RPing, or just being there. "Someday" can't come soon enough, for me...
4. I see you as at the head of a ship that I'm being pulled along after, and have yet to haul myself up onto. You're an awesome person, and I envy your drawing talent. I just wish I felt closer to you.
5. I love you. You know that. And I regret that we don't talk as much as we used to. It scares me that we could be drifting apart, but I swear I won't let that happen. Even if our friendship unravels, I'll keep ahold of at least one thread, so it can be resown someday. Visit me soon, okay?
6. It's been said of me that I make friends quickly. Well, you're one of the quickest I've ever made, and I don't want to lose you, even though you live a world away. It may hurt, but someday I want to get to know you better; you can ask the same questions of me that I do of you, if you'd like. 'Sides, you know me, I'm always there for my friends...
7. I don't know what to think of you anymore. You helped raise me, but I don't know if you were always there for me. Only in my adulthood have I seen through the gossamer cloth that was your parenting, and I can stick my arm through all the holes. The opinion of the others are starting to wane and so help me, I want to stay on your side, without feeling duty-bound to. But it's getting harder to...
8. I made friends with you without even knowing who you were. Honestly if I had, I think I wouldn't have been able to RP with you that night. You drew so many awesome pics of my character, even though she was flawed as hell, and kind of a god-moder. And when I lost AOL, you were sad to see me go. I'm sorry I don't talk to you anymore, you always were one of my best online friends. I miss you, man.
9. To the collective souls of one fandom: I'm sorry I don't do much in the fandom anymore. I still love it to death, but right now it's painful to watch it, and painful to draw/write for it. But I'll finish the fic someday, as well as return to the board, once something stops hurting inside.
10. To the collective souls of another fandom: I kinda touched on this earlier. I don't really feel a part of the fandom yet, like it's a boat I'm trailing, or that I'm leaning against the outer wall of it as a city. That's probably imagined, and some of you guys seem pretty attached to me. I'll come in someday, though. Just...bear with me while I test the waters...
Yeah, I copped out on the last couple. Ah well ^^;
List 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will.
Don't say who they are.
Never discuss it again.
1. I hate you. I used to love you in the past, but now I hate your guts and wish you'd get out of my life. You're so many miles away now, but you've still got tendrils in me and I wish I could pull them out, uproot you, and forget you. I moved past. It's time you did too.
2. I'm sorry we never talk anymore. You're a big part of a fandom that I, sadly, have little interest in now. Not because it was cancelled, then brought back; I'm glad it was. And I still love it, I just...don't have any interest in following it anymore. And it's sad that you no longer draw for it. I'll talk to you again someday, I promise.
3. You are my world. I thank every single diety out there that you walked into my life, everyday. I just wish things would go right, for once, and that nothing would get in the way of us talking, or RPing, or just being there. "Someday" can't come soon enough, for me...
4. I see you as at the head of a ship that I'm being pulled along after, and have yet to haul myself up onto. You're an awesome person, and I envy your drawing talent. I just wish I felt closer to you.
5. I love you. You know that. And I regret that we don't talk as much as we used to. It scares me that we could be drifting apart, but I swear I won't let that happen. Even if our friendship unravels, I'll keep ahold of at least one thread, so it can be resown someday. Visit me soon, okay?
6. It's been said of me that I make friends quickly. Well, you're one of the quickest I've ever made, and I don't want to lose you, even though you live a world away. It may hurt, but someday I want to get to know you better; you can ask the same questions of me that I do of you, if you'd like. 'Sides, you know me, I'm always there for my friends...
7. I don't know what to think of you anymore. You helped raise me, but I don't know if you were always there for me. Only in my adulthood have I seen through the gossamer cloth that was your parenting, and I can stick my arm through all the holes. The opinion of the others are starting to wane and so help me, I want to stay on your side, without feeling duty-bound to. But it's getting harder to...
8. I made friends with you without even knowing who you were. Honestly if I had, I think I wouldn't have been able to RP with you that night. You drew so many awesome pics of my character, even though she was flawed as hell, and kind of a god-moder. And when I lost AOL, you were sad to see me go. I'm sorry I don't talk to you anymore, you always were one of my best online friends. I miss you, man.
9. To the collective souls of one fandom: I'm sorry I don't do much in the fandom anymore. I still love it to death, but right now it's painful to watch it, and painful to draw/write for it. But I'll finish the fic someday, as well as return to the board, once something stops hurting inside.
10. To the collective souls of another fandom: I kinda touched on this earlier. I don't really feel a part of the fandom yet, like it's a boat I'm trailing, or that I'm leaning against the outer wall of it as a city. That's probably imagined, and some of you guys seem pretty attached to me. I'll come in someday, though. Just...bear with me while I test the waters...
Yeah, I copped out on the last couple. Ah well ^^;
